M.E.G.(mixedemotionsgirl)

NickNames

2005-04-28T03:55:00.000-07:00

1 meg(everyone basically)
2 mags(ryan)
3 megatha(hanna)
4 megathe(steven)
5 meggth(sabrina)
6 megley(used ot be ryan p.)
7 megaroni(britt..never liked this one)
8 lanie(britt)
9 kylee(katie)
10 gem(leah and others)
11 litl day brightnr uppr(chelsea)

poem/song

2005-04-22T11:23:00.000-07:00

don't know what to call this and its not finished and its having some rhyming sifficulties in the last part.//////////
people places
things and faces
everything was black and white
traveled the world
in different paces
lots of colors in my sight

turned ten
and then
everything got complicated
my head
it spins
not knowing what to do

broken,fixed
separate and mixed
everything was right or wrong
writing my thoughts down
on paper
not sure if they're poem or song

Drifting

2005-04-20T08:31:00.000-07:00

i feel like im drifting away
from eveyone
don't feel close
like i did the other day
i was number one (.5)
im distant from all of ur thoughts
don't know what ur gonna say.. anymore

either its me whos changed
but maybe its you
all i know now
is theres nothing i can do
to change anything
cuz i don't have the power or the force
to make u cahnge ur mind

i don't have any wings
they left
found more important things
then me
which there are many out there
and now ive hit the bottom

ive gone back to
where i promised my self
id never go again
back to being alone
back to livin a dream
back to not caring at all
drifting....

poem/song >

2005-04-19T14:48:00.000-07:00

Mixed Emotions Girl

Spinning round and round and round and round
Don’t know which ways up or which ways down
Don’t know which way to go
Why’m I telling you?
You already know.

That’s just the way that I am
Mixed Emotions Girl
That’s who I am inside
Mixed Emotions Girl
Sometimes its easy
Mixed Emotions Girl
Sometimes she’s hard to find

Can’t always tell what I’m really thinking
I know it’s hard but you should of seen
And now the danger light is blinking
I should of said what I really mean
But it’s not your fault
‘cause I didn’t know either
that’s just the way that I am

But now I changed
It’s all your fault
I don’t know if that’s good or bad
But now I’m more and more sad
I’d not cried in like five years
But u changed that
Without caring
Without me really sharing
Now I’m stuck this way
Every single day
Acting happy on the outside
While I’m black on the inside
Mixed Emotions Girl

I dunno what to call this it might turn out to be a poem

2005-04-17T16:59:00.000-07:00

ok im having a really bad life at the moment i don't have any one to turn to or think about or anything i feel really unloved
everyday it gets worse
not sure if i can hold on
im really depressed
and i don't know who to talk ot
i know i have to tell you all the truth
ive made that mistake before
and look where its gotten me
i wish i could go back
to that night
and yell and scream
that I didn't want this to happen
and now i can't take it anymore lucy im done just like i said i was done im over and im not coming back i don't have anyone anyone at all to make science less boring and now they can go and make ppl happy in ss and no one likes me likes me anymore and i don't like any one and steven just is like totally lying so im done and i don't know what to do

Over

2005-04-15T07:33:00.000-07:00

lucy you never heard of this one cuz no ones ever read it!/////
Y does it hurt so bad
What did I do wrong
What did I do to deserve this
I came first
He should go
Why does she want to kill this friendship
Its going down, breaking down, not coming back
She ruined it, its over
Nothing gonna change
It cant get better now, can only get worse
When its over, shes got no one
Should I go when its over
But it will never be over

U DONT CARE

2005-04-15T07:31:00.000-07:00

u don’t care that it hurts me so
u don’t care at all
ur never gonna break up with him
no matter what i say or do
i cant live this way
do u like it
if so hell with you

FRIDAY without swears

2005-04-15T07:29:00.000-07:00

i cant live this way
every single day
pretending im ok
when im not

DARN im sick and tried
of this whole thing
i hate us fighting
and everything else in between
DARN i hate my life

ur sry u say
u don’t mean it
next time u say ur sry...
will u mean it
No

y cant bad Friday
be a not so bad Friday
y cant bad Friday
be a not so bad Friday
y cant bad Friday
be a not so bad Friday
just for once

WINGS (poem)

2005-04-14T10:42:00.000-07:00

I lost a wing it was stolen
my right wing, now belongs to a *drugee*
n im trying really hard
to fly and stay flying

and im not sure if im falling
but Im struggling to stay above
the crack in the
in the world

this time it seems so different
not like any push before
this time it really did hurt
this time it was an *accident*

but i cant fly by myself
so please dont let me lose
my left wing too
my best friend
needs to get stronger

but how can he do that
when the right one
hurt him so
so what should i do now
i dont know

GIRL IN THE CORNER!(poem)

2005-04-14T10:41:00.000-07:00

They are so blind to not see
the girl in the corner
even though part of her is there
the caring part is not
their mind is being shadowed
by things that cant,
wont,
be let go
no matter how hard they try,
they will never know.

Chocolate is Yummy!!

2005-04-14T10:39:00.000-07:00

Hi ppls
Im sitting and eating the candy bar i got from band cuz i memorized a thingy for band!! I went out to lunch and i am home and IT IS VACATION!! which is kinda boring cuz i dont do anything hopefully ill see sum of my friends over vaca
Out PEACE!!

Half Day

2005-04-14T08:00:00.000-07:00

Its Thursday!!
we have a half day and there is no school tomorrow but i was gonna go out to lunch wiht my friend but shes sick today! Im in math class and I already finished all of my work so I'm bored. Someone who I don't really like went on my blog and they weren't supposed to cuz i told them not to! I will post more when I get home and I will put up more poems including "Girl in the Corner" and "Wings" and maybe sumthing else but those are ur favorites so.... tell me ur other favorits and ill post em!!! byby ly/all/lbas
Mixed Emotion Girl OUT!!

SO bored

2005-04-13T16:56:00.000-07:00

Hi people no ones commenting me thats probably because i forgot my email thing and i cant tell any of u about it so yea byby MIXED EMOTION GIRL OUT!!

Mixed Emotions Girl

2005-04-13T14:35:00.000-07:00

poem-A.K.A. COVERUP QUEEN
I thought you were the one
I guess i thought wrong
i trusted you i let myself go
what a mistake

u said ud never leave
and you could never hate me
we weren’t together long
even though it felt fake

the hug, awkward
didn’t want it
didn’t ask for it
but..
i can still feel ur arm on my shoulder
it wasn't as bad as i thouhgt it would be

u decided we were perfect
i was perfect
i was funny, we were friends
i was nice, smart, more like a sister
never mean
u thought af me as a goody goody

how why where when
could you think of an idea like that
i bet u changed ur mind
after i screamed yelled
and got peeved when u "broke my heart"

i may not look hurt
but things aren’t what they seem
i m so two faced
I’m good at pretending
a.k.a. the cover up queen